-0 lb -15.4 lbs since January 1st. -122.4 lbs since starting weight. Current Weight: 135.6 lbs

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I'm happy with this. We had a BBQ last night.. and yesterday I ate like crap.. So I was hoping to just come out even today.. I didn't want to see a gain again this week.

So I maintained this week. I've set my goals for this week.. which is to try and control my eating this weekend. My eating throughout the week whilst I'm at work seems to be OK, just my weekend eats are failing me slightly.

Will try to do better for next weeks weigh in.. however, I can't be far off being at goal. My body seems to be fluctuating around the same point.. so maybe I just need to clean up my food more and start 'toning'. I'll see what next week brings and then assess from there.

Enjoy the hot weather whilst it lasts.

Have you any plans for this weekend?

I have the National Lottery Anniversary Run coming up this Sunday. I'm looking forward to it. I will make sure to do a recap of the race.


Laura x

-1.4 lb -15.4 lbs since January 1st. -122.4 lbs since starting weight. Current Weight: 135.6 lbs

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Finally!

I was SICK of having the gains from the last two weeks.

Its about time the scales showed a loss for me and I'm so happy it did. I was DREADING another gain this week as its been getting me really down.

I'm not quite sure what I did differently compared to last week other than dropping the squat/ab challenge and picking up with the new Blogilates Calendar that I started on at the beginning of the month.

I hope that everyone in the UK is taking advantage of the lovely weather we've been having this weekend.

Have you got any plans for this week? 
I don't have much going on this week. Maybe at the weekend if the weather holds up! Fingers Crossed!

Laura x

+0.4 lb -14 lbs since January 1st. -121 lbs since starting weight. Current Weight: 137 lbs

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Ugh.. All I keep doing is beating myself up for this.

Another gain this week. I'm doing more than enough exercise so this is clearly eating related.

I was over or close-to for a few days at the end of the week but I didn't think that would do masses of harm.

Something with me eating is causing me to go the wrong way on my journey so my eating needs to be improved even more.

I'm going to try and cut down any unnecessary snacks, sweets, biscuits, cake.. any desserts on the weekend need to be healthy.

I do NOT want a third week in a row of gaining weight. Fingers Crossed!

Do you ever give yourself a little pep talk when something isn't going right? I did that..

Laura x

+0.4 lb -14.4 lbs since January 1st. -121.4 lbs since starting weight. Current Weight: 136.6 lbs

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Up again this week.  I'm not worried. I didn't need the toilet this morning, I usually go before every weigh in.

Granted.. I really don't think it would weigh almost half a lb (TMI, I know..) but it may have made some difference.

Stay positive. Work harder. Drink more water. What goes up.. must come down.

Last push to the end of the month. :)

Laura x

-0.6 lb -14.8 lbs since January 1st. -121.8 lbs since starting weight. Current Weight: 136.2 lbs

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Small Steps..  that's all it takes.

I've finally got it into my head that it doesn't need to be a massive loss every week. Small losses add up over time.

I'm happy with the small loss this week. Still going in the right direction.

Laura x

-1.4 lb -14.2 lbs since January 1st. -121.2 lbs since starting weight. Current Weight: 136.8 lbs

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When I weighed in this morning, I swear the scales said 138.6 lbs, clearly not because I have a picture but I think my mind was playing tricks on me.

I went the whole morning thinking I had gained again this week until I looked back at the picture before posting on the blog.

I lost the weight I had gained from last week and a little more putting me at a new lowest weight which I'm happy about.

I was feeling a little discouraged not knowing what went wrong this week when i thought I saw a gain on the scale.. but all is good now.

I was pleased with the loss, however, I am getting sick of some people (some family and friends) telling me that I probably wont lose much more. How do they know how much more I have to lose? Heck, I don't even know how much more I want to lose.

I know when I will be happy with my body, I know when I need to stop. If my belly doesn't want to disappear and I start to look out of proportion. I will stop, I'm not stupid so stop commenting on it. :/

Rant Over.

Happy Monday!

Have you ever had moments where your eyes and mind deceive you and you read the scale wrong?

Laura x

I haven't been a runner for very long. I've only recently picked up my running within the last year. Before last year, I didn't run enough to class myself as a runner.

I didn't actually know about it until today when I was reading Twitter and Blogs.

National Running Day happens annually on the first Wednesday of June. It is a time for all runners to declare their love for running no matter whether you've been running 20 years or just 1 year like me.

Its also a time to share why we run.

I run for many reasons..
to keep me fit and healthy,
to eat,
to relieve stress,

but most of all...


The reasons for running are endless!

I'm HOPING that I will be going out running tonight. However, there is a possibility that I can't because I've had serious stomach cramps all day stopping me from doing anything! :( Makes me sad!

Why do you run?

Laura x

-0.4 lb -11.4 lbs since January 1st. -118.4 lbs since starting weight. Current Weight: 139.6 lbs

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FINALLY! THE 130's!

Only a small loss this week, but I'm finally in the 130's and happy about it.

I think I am getting to the point where I do not have much more to lose and I need to start thinking about gaining strength and getting leaner instead of focusing on burning loads of calories.

I'm gonna come up with a plan to stick with from now on. I'm considering doing the Blogilates Calendar as of next month which I will do in the morning.. and then whatever exercise at night.. whether that's running or the gym.

So, next week.. I'm not hoping for a loss.. Obviously, it would be great.. but I don't think it should be my focus anymore. I need to focus more on measurements.

Anyone else 5'6'' in height? What is your GW? I have no idea what a person of 5'6'' is meant to be at or what I should be aiming for..

Laura x

Did my c25k run 3 on saturday. It wasn't too bad. I just wish I'd have eaten more before my ru. I'd eaten for breakfast. We went to costa at about 11am and I didn't eat anything until my run which was at about 4pm so it had been about 5hrs. I had no energy on my run. My legs were so wobbly. I managed to push through but it wasn't a good feeling. Im not gonna do that again.

I did my run 4 today. It was much better than it was the other day. I'd eaten on the way home ready for my run so I had the energy. It was crap weather, it was raining and cold yet I didn't make any excuses. I got out there and did it. Breathing and pace was good.

Like I did last week on run 4 I decided to try and do the next longer interval which is 5 minutes next week. So n my last 3 minute run, I ran 2 extra minutes into the cool down to make sure I could do next week.

Well, I did it. I ran the 5 minutes. But it was not easy. The first 3 minutes was fine, my breathing was ok. After that, I started to get breathless. My boyfriend was running behind me to time my last run. Giving me words of encouragement and tips to help me slow my breathing (I love that boy, he's so supportive).

At about 4 and a half minutes, I was wheezing really badly, I could hardly catch my breath and I started to panic. I think part of my breathlessness was due to me talking, I ket asking my boyfriend how long I'd done. Part was that. Got a little too excited that I was actually doing it and part of me was terrified cause I couldn't catch my breath.

My boyfriend counted down from 10seconds until I'd done 5minutes. As soon as I he said I'd done it, I had to stop instantly and try to get my breath back. I was in pure panic. Thought I was gonna pass out. I started crying, partly due to fear, partly relief. I'd done it. I'd ran 5 minutes. It doesn't seem like a lot it that was a big achievement for me. I'm incredibly proud of myself. I didn't think I would be able to do it.

Bring on week 4!

Now... Weigh in, the part which is not so good. I'm still not losing. This s the third week in a row that I have maintained. Everyone is saying atleast I haven't gained, but I'm not seeing it like that. I mean.. I'm gladi haven't gained up at the same time, it's making me depressed. People are saying im getting smaller and don't need t lose much more.

I don't see it like that. Not one bit. I look in the mirror and I still see the same huge fat girl that was there from the start. I have a massive belly that doesn't seem t want to shift. I have huge thunder thighs and a ugly pair of saggy horrible boobs. I'm not happy with my body and i wish it would give me a bloody break and just let me lose something already.

It's about 8 weeks until me and my boyfriend go n holiday to Egypt. I did want t get more tanned this year. I wanted to look better this year. I wanted to wear a bikini this year(I wouldn't look that good in one but decent enough to wear one). That's now not going to happen because when I tried one on, I thought I looked disgusting and really do it want ther people looking at me thinking the same.

I've had a look through my diary recently to see if I could pin point the problem. I think it's my eating. I tki need t eat more. I am currently not netting the 1200 that MFP recommends so this week I am going to try and et more and see whether that helps. I bloody hope it does.

Oh. On a side note. My hatred for 30 day shred is still present. I still dont like it and had to force myself out of bed to it this morning and it was still as hard as before. Although I'm not as sore now. Will just have to stick with it nowive started the damn thing. I wish I hadn't.

I hope everyone else is doing better than I am. Hope the weather is better than where I am and I hope everyone has a good week. Until then x

So, today, I went to Weigh in like I do every Monday. As I said in my last post, I was expecting this weigh in to be quite good based on my unofficial weigh in on Friday. So, without further waiting, I lost 3.6lbs this week and I'm ecstatic! I don't know HOW I managed to lose that much but I will take all the west loss I can get. This also means that I'm finally in the 11s. I'm 11st 10lbs according to the scales which I'm happy about too.

Next, today was absolutely miserable weather. It was freezing, raining and very windy. Regardless of the weather, me and my boyfriend decided to go for a run anyway, no excuses because of the weather. It had started to calm down when we got out but the wind and rain still made it difficult.

Today was C25k week 2 run 1, as I mentioned in a previous post, I was absolutely terrified of this run. After struggling so much with my last run I didn't think that would be able to run longer this week. Week 2 consists of a 5 minute brisk walk for warm up, then 90 seconds of running followed by 60 seconds of walking for a total of 20 minutes and then 5 mins brisk walk cool down.

I did surprisingly well I think. The first 90 seconds run went really well, it felt easy and went really fast. Then the next consecutive runs also went well too. I was surprised that I was able to run for the full 90 seconds without stopping so I'm really proud of myself. I managed to do the full run with no problems.

Like last week, I'm going to be doing 4 runs again this week with a rest day in between each run. I'm optimistic about the rest of the week and my next 3 runs based on my run today. I'll keep everyone updated with my progress. I hope it goes as well as I hope it will.